nika rebekah

every time i sit down to write, i can't clear my head of my desperate sadness & current slump over this break up that seems like it will never end. i'm in the phase where i think only of the moment when i discover that there's someone new. that we're not going to kiss again. we're not going to share every goddamn thing. it has been years since i've felt this low, this confused, rejected. i broke up with him. i broke up with him. reminding myself, trying to sort out the feelings. i can't sleep over anymore. we can't see eachother. in this tiny town. all i want is to fix it. how can my emotions be spun in a complete 180 degrees? if he wanted me, i wouldn't want him, right?

ugh get me away from here!

this is dragging me down. i can't even feel happy about moving which should be my light at the end of this stifling tunnel.

where's my fast-forward button?